Double Standards Much?
“Patriarchy conditions men to use emotional extortion and passive aggressive behaviors –saying hurtful things and then claiming them as innocuous opinions; shutting down after deliberately saying something provocative and offensive and then accusing the woman of picking fights or being emotional; demanding your silence in the face of offensive behaviors in exchange for love and affection–as a way to gain control over women who intimidate them.”
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This absolutely happened to me at the last atheist meetup I attended. I *somehow* got the guts to challenge this man on using “pussy” as a slur, then he tried to defend himself, first saying that since it means “weak” and “bad” it’s ok, and then saying that words are just words that don’t really have meaning. And that I should just go put my feelings in a little box (as he tells men that work uner him at a construction site) somewhere if I was going to get them hurt by talking to people. To which I replied, surely you can approach an atheist meetup where you come for conversation a tiny bit differently than you do your job? And I only broached the subject because I thought you might listen, instead of defend your misogyny with stupid reasons. Apparently not.
I’ve gotten into the habit of saying “cock up” to even the playing field when guys use the term ‘pussy’ with negative connotations… Like “you’re such a cock up”, “you cocked that up” or “You’re totally cocked”…Not sure if that’s really a good thing tho… but I like it :3
Mecha Con Plans
So… I got a call from Reiko not too long ago. She was driving/moving back down to Louisiana. Her hubby Jim is deploying soon, so they wanted to get her and baby Owen fully moved down there. The rent is much cheaper, and she wont be alone in a city she doesn’t like surrounded largely by people she don’t know.
And then she tells me, “Are you taking the Summer off? Because if you are, I will pay for your plane ticket down here. In fact, when’s Louisiana-Con??”
I had never even heard of Louisiana Con, so I googled it. I didn’t find anything, but … I did find Mecha Con. It’s in August, and it moved to New Orleans. And that sounds most promising.
Reiko’s and my last hoo-ra was Mecha Con in 2008 (Mecha Con IV). It. Was. A Blast! We ended up making friends (
who no longer speak to us) and got some swag, and I took tons of video ( which I still haven’t edited fully), and I took so many pics that I made a huge pair of matching scrapbooks for both of us. It was just one of those experiences that was so fun and enjoyable for both of us that we both look back on it fondly. And, needless to say, the prospect of going back with Reiko is exciting :)
So, this year, Mecha Con’s gonna be in New Orleans instead of Lafayette. It’ll be from August 26 −28th. My Dad’s told me that he has had a ton of Delta Sky miles all built up from flying offshore so much over the years, so he’s offered to let me use his sky miles for the flights, which would be awesome. Then all we have to worry about is our passes and the hotel rooms. I’m actually hoping to save up some money before then… Lord knows it won’t be much, but it’s better to be conscious of it than forgetful.
It’d be nice if I could visit with more of the girls more often, but none of us have ideal circumstances for visits. Jen’s in Georgia and a student like me. Chibi’s busy with her dream job in NV. And Scamp, though closer, is still tormented by her own SAD. So, I console myself knowing it just isn’t the right time with the others, and enjoy the prospect of spending time with Reiko :)
So, it looks like I’ll be flying down some time at the end of August to New Orleans :) I’m really looking forward to it, and already making plans now. I really hope all the plans go through.
Tonight, I went to Wal-Mart, because I needed to buy a folder to put my Photography Class Portfolio in. Of course, after I found (
something that resembled) what I wanted, I roamed the journal, stationary, book and pen isles..it’s just a habit. I found this small journal… it had an elastic band that went around it to keep it closed, and it was covered in a fine fabric that was gray, black and rich purple plaid.
I picked it up off the shelf. I held it in my hand. I felt the weight of it. I opened it, and admired the creamy color of the pages, and the adequate space of the lines on the paper. I liked it. I liked the simple design. I liked the size, small enough to fit in a purse. I liked how easy it was to keep open when the elastic band was off. I liked the lines on the paper. I carried it around with me as I looked at pens.
I went back, and put it back on the shelf. And I felt a little depressed about it… not because I didn’t buy it. But because, even if I had bought it, I can’t imagine what I would’ve written in it to make it special. So, I couldn’t see buying it. Besides… I already have a journal =\ Why does it affect me when it’s really something so small? Or am I mistaken, and what’s wrong isn’t small at all?
Then I checked out and went to Taco Bell for a crunchy beef burrito.. I swear, the put crack in the cheese @..@
So today was a pretty awesome day for me. Two very positive things happened and they both pertained to my skill in taking pictures :) But I”m getting ahead of myself. Great things that happened…well… Photography class was great. Algebra was canceled. I got my algebra homework done and submitted with a minute to spare. But most importantly, Photography Class turned into Photography Club.
I always assumed that there was a photography club, but I don’t ever remember hearing it mentioned. Turns out the teacher along with one of her long-time friends and a fellow classmate of mine runs the club. Or at least, she sits high enough up to invite people to join.
After photography class, I lingered behind. I had planned to go into the Algebra classroom while no class was in session and finish up my homework. But when I learned that Algebra was canceled, I went to head home. Luckily, I noticed that a few of my fellow students were still in the class, so I went inside. One of the ladies asked to see my photos, so I laid them all out on the table. I’m always fairly eager for a critique because I tend to look over what’s good and see only what’s wrong with a shot. She really loved my pictures and after looking at them she asked if I’d be interested in joining the photography club. She took my e-mail address and gave me her card, writing down all the information about the next meeting. I was so jazzed. I could barely contain my excitement. Of course, I had to because I still had algebra homework to turn in.
That was interesting. The lesson we were going over wasn’t foreign by any means, but I hadn’t looked at a lick of homework since just before spring break :| From what I understand, that’s common. Anyway, down to the wire and I ended up making a 100%, so I suppose the struggle really paid off. But the homework was due at 2pm, and when I hit the save button, I looked up to find I had submitted it at 1:59pm :3 I did one of those “In your face!” chants to the clock. It was so silly.
Anyway. The photography club thing for this next meeting is either “Telling a Story” so a picture that tells a story, or “The Best of Orange” so…uh…something with orange. So, I went through my photos and uploaded the best I could find to Walgreen’s. I had gotten a 40% off code via e-mail so I decided to indulge and upload my sushi pictures and print them out too :3 I’m honestly thinking about putting those on the wall in my kitchen… just for fun. As always, I ended up printing quite a few pictures… which is somewhat neurotic since I’ll only be submitting one…but I like all of them, so it’s not like I’ll throw them away or anything. So in my mind, it’s not like it’s going to waste.
Anyway, the website said that the order would be ready at 7:23, which I thought was weird since I ordered them at 4, but what’evs right?. I bided my time. I decided to go by Taco Bell around 5:45… I dunno why I went early. I suppose I assumed it wouldn’t take too long to print them, and plus the drive through at Taco Bell can take a while anyway. So, I went. I picked up 2 of those crunchy beef burritos (because they taste awesome and they’re so cheap), and I went to Walgreen’s (which is right next door).
When I got there, no one was at the photography counter, so I walked over to the main cashier by the door and asked if anyone was there for photo pick ups. She said, yes. It was her. So as we were walking back to the photo area she asked what name the photos were under and I told her my name. She had been looking straight ahead while she walked, but when I said my name her eyes got big and she lit up. She said, “Oh those pictures came out great! They were so good!” …and I was shocked. I mean, it’s obvious that the people who print and cut the photos are going to see them. But I had printed out hundreds, and no one had every noticed them. I was shocked and befuddled by the praise. All I could do was humbly say “Oh … thank you.”
She continued to go on about the ones she liked, how the cat picture came out so vivid, and the autumn shots were beautiful. I continued to smile and thank her for her opinion. She asked me if I was in the photography class, and I said that I was. She smiled and said that some of my class mates had been in earlier, and she had told them about my photos and how amazing they were.
o..o oh…really… huh. That’s …nice.
I then said that the class wasn’t really in competition, but I thanked her anyway, and she said, “Well, I bragged on you anyway!” which I found… strange. It’s a foreign concept, someone so removed from my life appreciating my photos. I understand that they’re decent pictures too, but I guess I assume that since I was there taking them, in the moment, understanding what it was I was trying to capture, that I’m biased.
I got in my car feeling… really pleased. I’ve thought before about giving Photography a shot as an active hobby, but I always assumed that I had more luck than skill. It’s why I was so jazzed about joining the photography club. Photographers learn so much from each other, I was so excited to have the opportunity. And maybe I’m giving it more than it’s due, but either way…. I’m so stoked :3
Now…I have a burrito to eat and some poetry to read. So I’ll write later :)
You Are an Adventurer
You are thoughtful and responsible. It’s rare that you find yourself in a bind.
You are good at finding balance in your life. You rest when you need to, but you also know that too much rest is dangerous.
When you get tired, you tend to feel scattered and a bit disoriented. It’s hard for you to get your bearings.
You are happiest when you have had a full and challenging day. There’s nothing like a well earned rest.
Wow….you really don’t know me o..o
I’m a little nervous…
So, I took my old laptop and my external hard drive in to the shop, to get them repaired, or at least see how much it’d take to get them repaired. Turns out the external hard drive is slowly dying. The files show up, but they all say that there 0 bytes, and sometimes you can view them, and sometimes you can’t. Now and then the hard drive will work five, but there are times when for no apparent reason, it just doesn’t work. As for the old laptop? The logic board is going out, which in Macs, works as the motherboard. They said they can transfer the files on it to another mac.
…so I’ll be dropping this (my new laptop) off after chemistry -..- hence the nerves. It’s going to take them quite some time to transfer the files. I know this because I left my stuff with them a week ago and they’re just getting things resolved. But that’s neither here or there. So, I don’t really know when I’ll be getting this laptop back. Luckily, my desktop seems to be working great /crosses fingers.
I’m also really nervous about the external drive. I had to pick my jaw up off the floor when the lady told me that they could send the device to another place that was able to get data off of drives that were totally dead, but those places charged by the amount of data recovered from the device. She said she estimated that with amount of stuff on that drive, it’d cost around $1,000 O..O’ that’s about $950 more than I have. Knowing that the data’s there and I can get at it from time to time… I suppose the only thing I can do is keep what I have off till I can afford to replace it and then just cut and paste all the data that I can whenever I can. At the rate I’m going, it’ll be quite a while though -..-
So that’s where I am now… And now for something completely different: My Chemistry teacher decided that we’d take today to celebrate Pi as well as Mole day. So she asked us to bring pies today :3 I made a no-bake pie, by crushing up Oreos for the base, making chocolate pudding to go over that, whipped cream over that and more crushed Oreos over that. I can’t wait to see what everyone else is bringing :) Actually looking forward to Chem today.
And now, I have to go. Later :3
ADD Supernatural List - Like a Virgin
So… I have a ton of stuff that needs doing around the house. I got rooms to straighten, clothes to wash, and I’d like to do some more homework too. But I realize that priorities need to be set, so I want to get this out of the way…
I knew that I’d be way too keyed up to actually watch Supernatural when it premiered, so I just let the DVR tape it so that I could fast forward through the commercials and all :| Yeah, I’m a wimp about suspense like that. So, I kept my laptop handy, and literally typed my thoughts as I was going through the show. Here’s what I got for the return of Supernatural: Like A Virgin.
1) Someone alert Batman.
2) Angsty Cass is angsty -..-
3) Sammy’s Back Yay!
4) Oh dear… Memory Loss-Sammy. Not good.
5) Grouchy Bobby is Grouchy
6) Death would probably prefer a chili dog to a fruit basket :3
7) …seems the worst monsters always go after the virgins…
8) …man bat?
9) Wait, why’d they leave her behind?
10) o..o oooooh…
11) World of Warcraft! XD Awesome!
12) o..o so… dragons look mostly human? Man… that’s… disappointing -..-
13) DCUO commercial!!!
14) Lore chick is awesome :3
15) Lore chick’s a sword chick! It get’s better! Dang, Bobby, why’d you let her go?
16) … really? Dean’s gonna try going all King Arthur? That’ll end well. Music’s nice though.
17) I can’t believe they think Sammy will buy their excuses…
18) Oh Cas. You’re naiveté is so adorably refreshing :3
19) O..O … Dean…be careful with that.
20) …. oh dear……Poor Sword/Lore Chick!
21) “Where’d you get that?” “Comic Con” XD And Sam says Dean isn’t funny!
22) Wonder what the boys are gonna do with all the dragon gold…
23) Here comes the talk…
24) Creepy dragon book is creepy! o..o why do I want one?
25) O..O Purgatory!
26) Wait, why do they wanna go to purgatory?
27) Cloverfield! x3 Bobby, you so funny.
28) O..O Echidna!
Well…that’s all. Thanks for going through my own corner of ADD on this :) Peace out!
Your result for The Golden Compass Daemon Test…
Quiet Loner Soul
You are a quiet, solitary kind of person. You probably rely on your few close friends or family members to get you out of the house occasionally, or you would probably forget to leave. You don’t like big crowds of people, or being in new social situations, because they make you feel uncomfortable and you get tired very quickly. You need to spend some time alone in front of a computer, book, or television to recharge after expending all of that social effort! You have a lot of personal projects that you like to spend time working on.
You don’t spend much time talking about yourself or your emotions. Your close friends and family probably have to try and remember to ask you directly about your feelings, and even then you probably just smile or shrug a lot of the time. People who don’t know you well probably forget that you even have emotions at all, because you never get angry or upset. Really, though, you just don’t think of your emotions as being important. It doesn’t even occur to you to call someone and complain about your day, or to retaliate when someone insults you. You march to the beat of your own drum, and you don’t really care that much when other people think. You are calm and logical in nature, and reacting emotionally to things simply doesn’t come naturally to you. Perhaps you have been hurt or embarrassed in the past, which makes you afraid to share your feelings. Or maybe you are just naturally that way.
At the same time, you are not uncaring, and you are aware of the feelings of other people around you. When a close friend or a family member is going through a rough time, you are sympathetic and probably wish you knew how to make it better.
Your daemon’s form would reflect your solitary, calm, logical nature, but would not be aggressive or intimidating in appearance. He or she would probably spend time talking to you constructively about how to solve problems, or simply watching over your shoulder while you indulge in your hobbies.
Suggested form: Lizard, Gecko, Manatee, Tree Kangaroo, Grass Snake.
Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month.
Low: Finalsfinalsfinalsfinals. Oh, aaaand the whole ‘dear God I feel so sick, someone make it stop!’ was pretty low too…
High: NO MOAR FINALZ ZOMG YAAYZ! … and probably Christmas will be a high too :) it usually is.
Day 29 - Goals for the next 30 days.
Hm. Enjoy Christmas with the family :) oh, also… <..< Pay my tuition for classes and/or find out if financial aid will actually help me out this time…. and hopefully get my computer working to the point that I can play WoW without getting kicked off every few minutes. It’d be nice to get some RP back.
Day 28 - Something that you miss.
Zen… ;_; eating Zen with Scamp. And Reiko. And Chibi. And anyone else who wanted to eat sushi with me at Zen. Or eating it by myself, because it’s so good I can’t stay away even if I don’t have a reason or person to eat it with. Zen. I miss Zen -..-
Day 27 - A problem that you have had.
Srsly? You’re like, really reaching here with very bland questions. Problems? I have a few. Health issues that there’s no real cure for. Job issues that just wont go away. But that feels like complaining and I hate to complain. Oh. I know. I’m not good at cleaning. That’s a problem that I have. And I mean, my house isn’t really dirty, it’s just cluttered. Because, I’ll shuck my pants off and leave them on the ground and not care if they’re still there five days later. I used to do the same thing with plates. I’d put them on the floor, because there were so many glasses on my end table. And they’d just stay there… for days. Finally I’d be like “OK, no plates left. Time to load up the dish washer.” and then I’d pick them up. But I really don’t care if things are slightly out of place as long as it doesn’t bother me….
So… Problem: I’m a slob :3
Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.
Hm…. I suppose someone who’s fun to be with but kind of low-key and reliable. I’m kind of over the top crazy some times, but for the most part I like to just chill. Life doesn’t have to be in your face all the time. It doesn’t always have to be funny or loud or smart either. And I like having people around that make me laugh and all, but sometimes you just want quiet.
Day 25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.
hmm.. gonna have to really think about this… Like, if we’re talking about people we kinda know, then I’d have to say strixus. She’s just really intelligent and very clever (it’s not the same thing, I promise you), and I’ve always said that intelligence is pretty hot :) I’m not saying I have a ‘What Would Strixus Do?’ bracelet or anything, I’m just saying that she’s one of ‘those’ people… if she’s involved in something, I’ll probably pay more attention to it.
There are plenty of stars that I find pretty fascinating, but most of them… well, it’s because they’re stars. I mean, I have noticed that Tom Cruise is really good at doing what he does. He totally convinces me every time that he is the character he’s portraying… but, when it comes to actors and actresses…I’m not quite as interested in Orlando Bloom because of who he is, moreso because he played a damn good Legolas :)…you know? If I had to pick among that community… Sharon Osbourne is pretty awesome, and I feel like I can say that accurately because she’s never anyone but herself ^..^ I’m just sayin.
Day 24 - Your favorite movie and what it’s about.
Are you kidding? Are you seriously kidding me right now? My favorite movie? There’s a reason I’ve got like… over 300! I love movies in general, and it’s really really (really!) hard to just pick one movie. Lord of the Rings, V for Vendetta, My Big Fat Greek Wedding, The Fifth Element, Star Wars (the original trilogy tyvm), Avatar, The Breakfast Club, Sings, there’s just so many! How can I pick??